Doing acts of Esteemability

Today is a hard day. No particular reason, which in some ways makes it more frustrating - but living in an ADHD, anxious mind is really challenging, and doing the basics to just be well often feels like it takes all I have, before adding the complexities of marriage, work, parenting, etc. On days like today, I find it helps to shift the mindset of good/bad/healthy/unhealthy to what do I hold in esteem - ie, what will make me feel like I care for myself, in this moment. Today, that was working out, but also spending the entire day working from bed. It was eating guacamole and chips for lunch at 3pm, but it was eating when I absolutely would have rather skipped the meal. Taking it into the “what makes me feel cared for in this moment” paradigm allows me to make gentle, balanced choices that may not look like a magazine’s descriptor of health, but allows me to keep going, with the knowledge that self-love doesn’t have to look like anything to anyone else, it’s a true relationship between me and myself.